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Chapter 24: Our Final Bow
My world had crumbled. I had messed up. I had messed up so bad it’s not even funny. I betrayed the only man I’ve ever loved and now I may lose him forever. It was safe to say that I was falling apart. I know all this may have meant very little to you but to me, this love story meant the world. I was the girl who never fell in love but always wanted to. I’ve given you the...
This may be the end of The Fame Game but...
I WILL be writing their first Christmas together. I loooooove Christmas and since it’s around that time, I thought it would be necessary ;D
Anonymous asked: Oh my goodness. I wanna know what happens to Jess and Niall! And i think you should write another fanfic as well but i wanna know what happens!(: i dont have a tumblr but i love your fanfic!:D -Jana
Would you guys be open to me writing another fic?
I know I’m not the best at updating but I put a lot of time and effort and heart into these chapters, that’s got to count for something right? I’m thinking a little douchey this time. No perfect little nice guy. A normal guy. Consumed with fame. Whoring out. But with one of the boys that’s more unexpected like Liam maybe?
Please, please, PLEASE tell me what you guys...
Chapter 23: I Will Try To Fix You
[[MORE]]It came as no surprise that Niall hadn’t been talking to me much. I tried to take for myself something that would never be mine from one of my best friends. Jessica was so in love with him and I felt responsible for their break up. He was doing well hiding his hurt during practice and during the shows. I watched him sing with Jessica knowing it was hard for him. I looked out at the...
Ok so I've finished Chapter 23 for the most part....
I know I was bad with the last chapter and I lost 3 followers for it. I’ve been so busy with school and I’ve got all these new friends and there’s been so much drama and it’s been so consuming. I’m really sorry I didn’t get to it sooner. I’ve been having to write a lot of essays for English and that’s taken up a lot of my creativeness as well. I love...
Chapter 22: The Right Thing and Yet The Wrong...
[[MORE]]No one had to know. The other night was a good thing. It finally brought to Zayn and I the thing we’d needed most for a long time. Real closure. Now granted we didn’t have to kiss to bring the closure that proceeded but still. I was helping Niall pack while he took remedies for his hangover. I had always been the motherly type, so when someone I loved was in need it was me who...
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Chapter 21: How Do You Love Someone But Then...
[[MORE]] Everything that happened was just… I couldn’t handle her being gone. Just gone. She’s back now but I realized over those weeks just how much I needed her. I’d been struggling since the start of the tour. Watching them, always together, always doing the things I imagined myself doing with her. It killed me watching them be everything I wish I could be with her and...
Chapter 20: Back With a Bang
[[MORE]]Much to my disappointment I had to stay in that damn hospital for weeks. When I thought I was performing the concert just four days after my assault it had actually been about a week and a half. I was just so drugged up I couldn’t stay awake for very long or very coherently and I would sleep for ages. The trial for the girl who attacked me was short, she confessed and it was obvious she...
Chapter 19: Lost Time
[[MORE]]My heart raged in my chest trying to beat right out of me. My knees were weak as I ran down the hall with Louis but I pressed forward. My breaths were ragged and gasping and my eyes stung with tears as I pushed pasts doctors and patients and found my way to her room. The door was shut and I could hear the machines beeping urgently with warning. I threw my fist against the door before Harry...
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Chapter 18: Ghosts
[[MORE]]I was trapped. Trapped in glass. I beat my fists against it to no avail. I could hear things but they weren’t clear, see things but they were fogged. It was like seeing life through a computer screen. I saw him sitting there, broken, crying, I wanted to reach out and touch him but my limbs refused to move. I was a prisoner in my own body. I watched him grab my hand and look longingly at me...
Anonymous asked: I loved the chapter, I think I started reading right after you posted chap. 13! I was just searching for new fanfics to read and I stumbled upon yours! I had to go back and start from the beginning!!(:
Anonymous asked: I loved the last chapter! I dont have a tumblr but I have been reading you fanfic from the beginning! It is so good! I really wanna know what happens next and if she is okay!(: -Jana
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Chapter 17: Nightmares and Hard Chairs
[[MORE]] I rounded the corner frantically, hearing the shrill cries from outside. I saw a head of blonde hair shoot off down the alley before my eyes fixed on Jessica lying motionless on the ground staring at something far away. She looked so pale, so helpless. I ran to her side the moment the shock wore off enough to move. Tears filled my eyes and a sob ran up my throat. My lips were moving and...
Chapter 16: A Family Night Out
As we drove to Charlotte my heart pounded in my chest. I didn’t know how my brothers were going to behave. I didn’t want them to mess this up for me. They had witnessed my hysterics all those years ago over the boys. How obsessed, not dedicated let’s be perfectly honest with each other here, obsessed I was. My brother Jeremy saw me run around the house screaming because I got...
Chapter 15: Long Overdue
As days turned into weeks we started to get into our groove a bit more. Jessica and I had plenty of time together but rarely alone. She has been battling her bad natures and I have been helping her. The only problem is every time she slips she goes into a self encouraged sulking. She doesn’t give herself enough credit. Even with how tired I know she is, she still manages to smile her biggest...
Chapter 14: Savior
The next few days went by like a flash, every night there was a new stage a new crowd to hear the same songs, see the same routines. It was the nightmare of touring. It was great to see their happy faces each and every time and feel the rush of the cheers, the lights, the music, but it was a mess of sleeping, eating (occasionally) and working, mostly working. And when you were burnt out? They gave...
Chapter 13: And When All Is Said and Done....
I walked over to him breathing deeply. Don’t jump to conclusions, you don’t remember what happened next,[[MORE]] there is no guarantee yet that you cheated on him. Besides, you were drunk, and you agreed with Niall that last night was a night that never happened. The fact I didn’t remember sleeping with Harry made me feel much better. A bonus came out of it as well, I realized...
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Chapter 12: Hide and Seek
I looked up at Harry baffled. “What the hell happened last night?” We said simultaneously. I scrambled away from him to the edge of the bed, luckily feeling my underwear against my skin. “Did we…?” I asked my eyes opening wide. Harry thought with horror desperately trying to grasp for memories.[[MORE]] “I remember….” Harry wasn’t looking at...
Chapter 11: Lost time.
Ariana: “She kicked me out of our room.” I complained as I stared at the door, shut, in front of me. Zayn turned, saw my dilemma, and laughed. “You could come to my room if you want?” He offered. This was against my better judgement. Jessica and Zayn had history, he’d just been heartbroken today, he couldn’t possibly be over her in the blink of an eye. He...
Chapter 10: A Night To Remember....or maybe not?
Louis, Harry, and Niall had ordered copious amounts of alcohol from room service, much more than I think we’d need. I sighed as they forced a night of drunken truth or dare upon me and in my hotel room none the less! When it all arrived I gulped. I wondered if I got hung over? My brother would brag to me about how he never got hung over no matter how much he drank, hopefully it ran in the...
Chapter 9: After The Fact
Chapter 9: After The Fact. I stood looking out over the crowd as we finished the song. I clung to my anger and turned it into passion as we sang. With all the lights of the stadium on me I somehow still felt like I was in complete darkness.[[MORE]] I had meant every single word of what I said to her and I was right, I knew that…I think. I still found myself feeling guilty though and I...
Fun In The Sun. (mini)
Here’s a little something to tide you over until I post the next chapter. This is the night by the fire in the crushes perspective. So don’t read if you haven’t read the last chapter! Wouldn’t want to give anything away ;D [[MORE]] I walked out into the bright sun a little self conscious about my paleness. Though I had been hitting the gym a lot mainly to catch up with...
Posting it, YOLO!!! The Dream.
WARNING: This flash back contains sexualcontent (some rather graphic), if you don’t like it don’t read it. [[MORE]] Harry laid in bed on that hot night. He was dying on top of his covers even though the air conditioning was on in the room it felt like a sauna. It might have had something to do with the fire haired pop star that had just left him alone to deal with the yearning...
Each chapter in order.
Chapters: Chapter 1: The Meet Chapter 2: Let the Games Begin Chapter 3: Closer Still Chapter 4: Conflicted Chapter 5: Dilemma Chapter 6: Test Run (part 1) Chapter 7: Test Run (part 2) Chapter 8: The Big Night Chapter 9: After The Fact Chapter 10: A Night To Remember….or maybe not? Chapter 11: Lost Time. Chapter 12: Hide and Seek Chapter 13: And When All Is Said and Done…. ...
Chapter 8: The Big Night
I woke up to a loud pounding noise. It took me a moment to register where I was, then it clicked. Niall had woken up with me and I found myself in his arms which made me strangely warm inside. We were both a little dilerious but the loud banging came again which we now figured out was someone knocking on the hotel door.[[MORE]] “Is Jessica in there?” Kyle, my personal body gaurd,...
The Nightmare: A mini side story.
[[MORE]] Ight so as this story has progressed I’ve thought of many things I left out and shouldn’t have or just don’t want to leave out anymore such as the bonding between Jessica and Louis (which just sort of happened all of a sudden sorry about that) plus birthdays, parties, and small things that I can’t fit into the story at the moment or any real moment. So I decided...
Special Valentines day teaser I made a while back
[[MORE]] Special Valentines Day teaser! Ok I’m writing the 6th chapter as we speak however I really want to do a Valentines day date with the secret lovers and it being February in the 6th chapter just doesn’t work weather wise. So! I’m writing this teaser using no names, no hints as to who it is what so ever because I just love Valentine’s day even though I don’t...
Chapter 3: Closer Still
“Damn she’s cute when she’s tired,” Niall sighed to Zayn as he walked down to the living room after carrying the sleepy pop star to her bed. The bonfire was great bonding time for all six of them. Even though Niall and Zayn were tired neither wanted to go to sleep, Niall because he was more hungry than he was tired. “Don’t I know it,” Zayn bit his lip...
Chapter 2: Let the Games Begin
“Mate.” Liam entered the kitchen where Niall was sitting eating, like usual. “Did you see that?” Liam asked referring to the pantless pop star that had just cat walked into her room. “Sure did,” Niall shook his head. What he’d just witnessed drew him to her like nothing he’d ever felt. One second she was sensual and seductive and then at the drop...
Chapter 4: Conflicted
Niall had drifted to sleep once or twice lying there with Jessica. His stomach fluttered with more than an insatiable hunger now. He had always thought she was beautiful, there was no doubting that she was, charming too, though something else was beginning to develop. He wasn’t just attracted to her, he was really beginning to like her. That seems like it would be nice but it wasn’t....
Chapter 7: Test Run (part 2)
Niall had been dreading tonight all week long. Tonight was the night of Jessica and Zayn’s test date. He decided to stay in his room all night sulking. The other boys had gone out and tried to convince him to go with them but Niall didn’t feel like doing much of anything tonight. He felt a bit of Nando’s might lift his spirits….and by a bit I of course mean a whole hell of...
Chapter 5: Dilemma
After Jessica left, Harry flopped onto his bed and let out a sigh. How close he was to getting her into this bed. Probably would have changed her mind then, Harry smiled smugly at the thought. Though he knew she loved another, there was no denying it. Maybe he had known it long ago, but he was surprised Jessica didn’t. To him it was so obvious, the chemistry they had and lord knows...
Chapter 6: Test Run (part 1)
Zayn couldn’t stand this part. Niall always got too close to her than Zayn might have liked. Though even now a couple feet separated them and he almost couldn’t bear it. He wanted Jessica to be his no matter what. He realized that, when his heart sank into his stomach when he saw her kissing Liam, even if it was nothing, he almost had a heart attack. He felt that sinking feeling of...
Chapter 1: The Meet
It wasn’t very long ago that I was told I was to tour with One Direction. Even though I’ve often met celebrities I previously adored this was a bit different. There was a time I was desperate to meet them, and now they want to meet me and write with me. Being so famous is still very surreal to me, even though it was always my dream and, in my mind, the inevitable future. It still gives...